Q&A with Mary

what if?
when I no longer have to be good
and no longer have to repent

when I let my body,
the soft animal
love what it loves
what if?

what will it love?*

(you do not have to be good
you do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting
you only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves. Mary Oliver in "Wild Geese")

what did I love before the questions?
the soft animal knows.

how did I love before it was said that love had to be earned?
you smiled the most big hearted smile

who did I love before I bent? (no prince, only blood in my shoe, rukediku)
you loved no matter what

how did I love without knowing what love was?
you loved what you love

And now that I know what love is not?
be the soft animal. breathe. let it love.